I hate myself sometimes

I hate the way every time I think I am over him I run back to him in a few weeks .He doesn't want to be seen with me in lolita I can tell which means that he can't accept who I am .The only issue with this is how much I love him I don't want to give up on the first guy I have ever loved because of a clothing situation , I don't have to change the way I act so It's not that big of a deal . Oh gosh I really don't know I just don't want to be sitting here in a few years time thinking why didn't I fight for him

Wondering on life

The dance we will be dancing at the Manchester mcm convention and it will be Me Myself and Nico nico douga ! I am dancing the part of the girl wearing the mask the one I began learnih the grand total of two blogs :) winning , aha so today we chose the song we will dang last year ! I am so happy to be able to do this I am going to practice so hard ! I will be the very best that I can .We are now debating on a second song , I really don't want to do Lilly Lilly burning night as I am dreading it as I will be wearing a wig but if it comes it I will dance it I don't mind as long as Emma and the others are happy right ? 

So today I am most excited too order my lolita wig and circle lens to be ordered , it appears that gothic lolita wigs are having issues with shipping =_____= If my wig doesn't come I will be very mad VERY VERY mad .

I am missing my cat at the moment <3 she's back next door

I worry a lot recently about relationships u_u It seems I will never be ready I'm just too socially awkward I guess ... oh well maybee one day !

Hello Sweeties :3
Kerry here , this is my first blog ! I really don't know how to start this off other than saying how excited I am for the mcm expo next year as if it wasn't amazing enough that I get to go to the MCM expo in Manchester I am performing there with Emma Abbie and others hopefully ! it will be so sweet I am really excited .On the date that is the 29th of November I will also be ordering a mint coloured wig  lolita style from gothic lolita wigs ! I will be wearing it with a pink maid dress too the mcm :3 My two favourite colours yaay ! 

I'd just like to take this section of my first blog to thank all of the girls from youtube who I speak too I love you all :3 I see you as sisters in the least cheesy way ever I hope we can meetup a lot next year! :) 

So right now I am watching drop dead fred eating chocolate :3 good place to be yeah ? yummy I also have milk and one of them straws that makes it taste like chocolate Yummy yummy yummy ehehe :3 o hoho 

so yeah sorry for my first boring blog BAIBAII